Why do I make a fool of myself? Why do I put my business out there online? Those are legitimate questions, and I think they are worth answering.
There are a few reasons why I’ve written more posts lately about some of the things I struggle with as a Christian. The simplest reason is because in my conscience, I feel it is a necessary part of what I am to do with KindlingTruth. My intellectual reasoning however is this:
For one, it is good for me. There is something about making a public confession that is very cleansing. It is humbling too, and I think most of us could use more of that.
Secondly, I hope to encourage others. I think very often we can look at our sins or other struggles and think that somehow we are worse than other people. We compare our reality to the personas people put out there. How many of us go around being really true, weakness and all? We live in a very unforgiving world, so it’s natural to put our best face forward. It’s not always so honorable to blatantly let all our sins hang out. However, when there is a time and place for it, I think showing our struggles is a good thing because it lets other people know they are not alone in this.
This is not a popular blog, but when I have received positive feedback it was mostly to do with my honesty. People find it refreshing. It is so easy for Christians to put on a show, and then we go around trying to measure up to the fake versions of people we see. We beat ourselves up. We feel as if our sins are too shameful. We might then turn away from Jesus instead of to him, or we might start to ignore our sins or justify them.
Facing our struggles head on is important, so by me showing some of this, I hope to encourage that in others. Maybe I’m making a fool of myself. But, you know what? I think I’d be a bigger fool if I ignored my sin and allowed pride to cause others in the faith to feel inferior or discouraged.
That being said, I don’t act without discretion. I consider who might read and take their feelings into account. There are plenty of other things going on in my life that I will probably never write about. I might write about some of the lessons I learn, but not the details of the struggle.
Anyhow, I can understand how my approach might seem foolish or even seem as if I am bringing shame to God. For most of my life I was much more foolish than I am now, and the entirety of my life was shaming God because I claimed to be a Christian but did not take the gospel to heart. I expect my foolishness to get less and less, and I believe that in being transparent and showing how Jesus is working mercifully in my life, this brings Him glory, not shame. I do not “sin more so grace can abound.” I make some of my sins known for the good of my growth and the encouragement of others.